It is so good to be free of the responsibility of the phone job! I can’t even say how much of a relief it is. Andy had been taking over more and more and suddenly I have so much more time on my hands!
Time to cuddle Jasmine and discipline Gabe properly. Time to listen to his chatter and actually play with him. Yes, all these were getting neglected badly.
The thing about multitasking is that if you try to do too many things at once, nothing gets done well. Not the phone job, or the laundry, or the food, or taking care of the children, and especially not the cleaning! (I hate cleaning)
When I was constantly being peppered with calls and texts while trying to run the house, I honestly got frustrated when the children had needs.
I’d be on the phone, the texts would be piling up, and I’d hear an email bling, trying to get lunch on the table in half an hour, and Gabe would fall off his chair and wail. Then Jasmine would wake up from her nap and fuss (loudly! Our children don’t do anything halfheartedly).
I get the feeling of a drowning person when too much piles up. Like I’m sinking with no hope. Because now I can’t hear the person on the phone over Gabe’s wails and neither can I comfort him properly or get Jasmine’s bottle ready because I’m trying to finish up the phone call with as much grace as possible above two crying children.
I was not a good mom the last few months. It’s true. I tried, but I was just too busy and that’s never good.
So hooray for motherhood! Hooray for stay at home momming with no extra job. I am excited to just be a mom, and only a mom!
I’m so happy you have this option to be a full-time mother now! I’m sure the children are glad, too!