When I started a blog, I envisioned carefully crafted posts, with deep, inspirational thoughts, cool how-to articles, and hilariously witty observations about life.
Umm…
Instead, I do well to get my two posts per week written at all, forget about having time to actually think deep thoughts about what to write.
The Meaning Of Life, My Thoughts on the Book of Revelation and The End Times, How to Train Perfect Children…
All these are blog posts I will probably never write, or even have the time to think about!
My morning goes something like this.
4 AM
Jasmine wakes up. Feed Jasmine. Jump back in bed and try to sleep before alarm rings.
5 AM
Open one eye and look at phone to see if there are any missed calls, texts, or emails for the puppy job. Answer what calls, texts, and emails there are trying to sound as cheerful as I can, because down in Pennsylvania, it is already 9:00 AM and people don’t understand that they are waking you up at an ungodly hour of the morning.
Turn on sound on phone and go back to sleep, hoping and praying no one else calls or texts.
5 to 6 AM
Phone rings, answer phone, go back to sleep thinking about how I should really get up and get a jumpstart on my day.
7:30 AM
Children wake up fussy and hungry. We drag ourselves out of bed, and in between phone calls try to get the children dressed, bed made, and breakfast on the table.
From there on out, the days really vary. The quality of the meals we eat, and whether or not the house gets cleaned and dishes washed depends on how grumpy the children are, how busy the phone job is, and how much effort I make to try to get outside and help Andy with the house.
So here it is, time to write another blog post, and I can find nothing deep, inspirational, or witty in my exhausted brain.
But this is life right now! And I have to just do the best I can, even when it feels like I have so many things to do that nothing gets done well.
Post Script
For those of you who don’t think 5 AM is all that early, let me explain that here in Alaska the sun doesn’t set until 11:33 PM, to be exact, so it sure is hard to go to bed in decent time.
I've been meaning to ask when/if it gets totally dark at night.
It never does get completely dark right now. Close to 12 it gets dusky, kind of twilight stage, then stays that way for about two and a half hours. By three thirty it’s usually pretty light out again. The children don’t sleep so well with all the light, so that’s a real downer. We’re talking about not putting any windows in their room to help with that problem.
And remember, winter comes too.:) When night actually comes and so does sleep, hopefully. . .
Even blogging once a week is wonderful. I love every post. They are all different.
,Mel
Thanks April! Your encouragement means so much. You are in the same stage yourself!
I hear ya Tabitha. This IS the stage you are in right now. It does me good to hear you say that you just have to do the best with it that you can. Amen….. all the while offering lament to Jesus for what you DO wish could happen. That is worship as well as gratefulness and praise. It keeps our hearts open to Him. Grace to you in this busy, adjusting stage of life! Love, April